Myself.
Stanley Ho
19
Cheerful person
SP Student
Bowler
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Why do i feel so shitty everytime when i have to do billing and payments for the household?
Why do i have to bear all the blame whenever i forget a small thing?
Why can't i be like any other child in the family who dont have to fret so much over family stuffs?
Why can't i have someone by my side who really understands me?
I know im the oldest in the family and i have to do this job because my dad is not in sg often, i wish my brother will help remind me at times in case i really forget. Those hefty fines for overdue payment is really robbing people in broad daylight. I also want a nice happy family where minimal troubles, my dad's health is not very good and so is my mum's. Then my grandparents' health recently also start to deteriorate and my mum and aunt have to keep taking care of them.
Attachment is ending in 4 days time, needa rush all my work. Just today i feel like i caused Dave to be scolded by Mr Tan because of calibration. But with Mr Tan's expectation, really, nothing can be done in 1 try unless it's really perfect.
I should just go face somewhere where there is no other people and release everything from my heart. Once and forall so that i will really feel much more relaxed in and out.
Today went for bowling training at GG after work, before that pass jie back her phone as she left it at my place ytd when fetching baby davin home. Boy he looks so adorable!
Then at training, just bowling as usual, hit a 198 first game. then after that, stunts and i threw my bowling ball 2metres into the air and watch it drop to the ground. Sigh, luckily no crack or whatsoever, was planning to play a prank on sihui only, then who knows i accidentally released the ball out of my ball :/
That's all ba, after that went dinner with xl and sihui then chatted abit then went home and sihui, cheer up lah, dont keep thinking abt that matter liao and be happy! :)
Why do i have to bear all the blame whenever i forget a small thing?
Why can't i be like any other child in the family who dont have to fret so much over family stuffs?
Why can't i have someone by my side who really understands me?
I know im the oldest in the family and i have to do this job because my dad is not in sg often, i wish my brother will help remind me at times in case i really forget. Those hefty fines for overdue payment is really robbing people in broad daylight. I also want a nice happy family where minimal troubles, my dad's health is not very good and so is my mum's. Then my grandparents' health recently also start to deteriorate and my mum and aunt have to keep taking care of them.
Attachment is ending in 4 days time, needa rush all my work. Just today i feel like i caused Dave to be scolded by Mr Tan because of calibration. But with Mr Tan's expectation, really, nothing can be done in 1 try unless it's really perfect.
I should just go face somewhere where there is no other people and release everything from my heart. Once and forall so that i will really feel much more relaxed in and out.
Today went for bowling training at GG after work, before that pass jie back her phone as she left it at my place ytd when fetching baby davin home. Boy he looks so adorable!
Then at training, just bowling as usual, hit a 198 first game. then after that, stunts and i threw my bowling ball 2metres into the air and watch it drop to the ground. Sigh, luckily no crack or whatsoever, was planning to play a prank on sihui only, then who knows i accidentally released the ball out of my ball :/
That's all ba, after that went dinner with xl and sihui then chatted abit then went home and sihui, cheer up lah, dont keep thinking abt that matter liao and be happy! :)
memorised at : 1:30 AM
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